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Elisabeth's avatar

Beautiful, Claudia

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Nicole Fegan's avatar

This is gorgeous, Claudia. Please never stop writing <3

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CLAUDIA MORALES's avatar

truly the highest compliment/request from one of my favorite writers in the world

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Macey Shofroth's avatar

"Sometimes I do not know what I am hoping for. Only that I am hoping. That I am oriented toward a future I want to be in if it will have me.” This left me breathless. I’m so glad you’re writing.

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Eve Fox, Feed Your Fight's avatar

You are a fantastic writer. Thank you for sharing yourself with us. I worked with Ryan on Bottle Bill at Beyond Plastics and made the little book of photos and remembrances from all of us for you and his parents after he died. We are all thinking of you today and sending you our love.

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Emily Mester's avatar

this was beautiful and beautifully written, thank you. hope to read more of your work ♡

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Andrea Nicole V's avatar

Stunning work Claudia. Clearly you and Ryan shared the same fervor for life and its people, a trait I've always admired in you. You've captured it beautifully. Love you always.

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ffsxcvvvsxc's avatar

you deserve whatever is coming to you, girly. liberalism is truly a disease. you ppl are either evil or retarded

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ffsxcvvvsxc's avatar

you deserve whatever is coming to you, girly. liberalism is truly a disease. you ppl are either evil or retarded

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Alvin Bragg Sucks's avatar

tl;dr, liberal ny bug thinks she's way more interesting than she is. your boyfriend is dead because of your politics and it doesn't make you more interesting that he died living the ideals of his subversive mexican blob gf, it makes you less interesting.

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Mary Kate's avatar

This is so beautiful. I cried. Thank you for writing and sharing. My heart is with you today 💓

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Jaqi's avatar

Thank you for writing this, Claudia.

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Busayo's avatar

God this is so good. Your light has made the world so much brighter

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madeline's avatar

This is that kind of writing that knocks the breath out of me and I am grateful that it does

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Angelina Chapin's avatar

Claudia, this is really beautiful. Ryan sounds like an amazing guy and I'm hope the vigil tmw is healing. Rest in power. I sent you a few messages (instagram, twitter) about possibly connecting if/when you ever feel ready. If not, no worries. But please keep writing, I'm sure he would want you to.

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Sam's avatar

Good lord these comments are really ugly and awful. Respectfully, I think everyone should take a break from social media, including the author of this blog. I will take my own advice now. Peace.

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CLAUDIA MORALES's avatar

With equal respect, I invite you to interrogate why you think anyone facing harassment and disinformation/distortion should be run off their places of connection with their communities and the places where they amplify their stories and the stories of people they love in hopes of reaching those who may be moved or buoyed or otherwise impacted by them. Why should the targets and victims of people's cruelty face the consequences of their assailants? I decline your advice; I decline the prescription to be bullied into silence.

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Julia M's avatar

So after you and his friends decided to throw the birthday party is that when you decided to set up a GoFundMe and raise $74,000+ to split amongst yourselves? Way to exploit his death! You are such a loser and there was a reason (one of many reasons actually) why Ryan's family omitted you from his obituary.

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CLAUDIA MORALES's avatar

It seems the multitude of things you do not know or understand includes "how to use Substack comments" so please see my reply to this under the same comment you left in the original thread, which is still there despite your weird paranoid comment earlier about it being deleted. If you can't see it, it may be because others appropriately though not at my request reported it for harassment. I have not reported it and will not take it down because I do not believe in giving people who deserve humiliation the reprieve of hiding willful exposures of the rot in their hearts and darkness in their souls from view. Get well soon.

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